心路

shine · 发表于 2006-8-23 22:08

我回到家了。
刚才的面试很成功，所以我即将成为一名教师了。COLEMAN 问我，为什么放弃现在人人羡慕的高薪工作，放弃大城市的生活，而转去一间偏僻的学校做老师。我回答说我也不知道。

昨晚做了一个很长时间的噩梦，让我感到很害怕。醒来之后，突然发现自己好象应该去接受这份工作，于是就去面试了。

昨晚，本来很高兴。但因为我们的感情发生了点问题。洗澡的时候，哭了。
约了珠，到了SCULPTING TIME CAFE，把心中的所有不快都告诉了她。她分析了很多，也让我看清了很多东西。我不停地给他打电话，但都是没有人接。那一刻，心情到了低谷，眼睛里闪烁着泪光。没有人接电话，所以发了短信告诉他我在哪里。本来想，如果今晚他不给我电话或者不来找我，我想我会断绝一切的联系，因为我是个很狠的人。

但他终究出现了。看到他的那一刻，很高兴，发自内心的高兴。

他送我回去，然后在楼下我们谈了很久。该哭的，该谈的，都已经过去了。才发现，原来爱情是需要简单的定律，虽然我相信幸福是要自己去争取。

我不能保证，不能承诺什么。但我会答应你的，但我也会坚持。

I will not make the same mistake that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much
misery.I will not break the way you did,you fell so hard.I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far.
Because of you,I never stray too far from the sidewalk.Because of you, I learned to play
on the safe side so I don't get hurt. Because of you I find it hardto trust not only me,everyone around me.Because of you I'm afraid.
I love my way .And it's not too long before you point it out.I can not cry because I know
that's weakness in your eyes.
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh,everyday of my life.My heart can't possilbly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.
I was so young you should have known bette than to lean on me.You never thought of
anyone else.You just saw your pain.And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same
damn thing.
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in .Because of you ,I'm ashamed of my
life,because it's empty.Because of you ,I'm afraid.
Because of you.